When I think about that period of time when The Bee’s dad and I spilt, initially I think of the pain, heartache and loss that I felt. After I mentally shake myself not to revisit that time when I was so, oh so depressed, I think about the positives (if you will) that resulted in the end of my married life. Such as… a new job, a career even, in which I feel as if I have been given new life and a love and desire to learn more, do more and be better. A newer relationship with me. This is a work in progress but this new Rachee is a wonderful person and I love getting to know more about her and who she is. I also think about the relationship that I have with my mom and the relationship she has with The Bee.While I wallowed in the pity that comes with being a newly single woman, there was a small child to take care of. However in my sadness there were times I could barely take care of myself. Mom was there to help pick up the pieces as I struggled to make sense of this new life that I had. My mom was there to support me, get me out if the rut and make me see that there was more to me than a busted up bad marriage.
The Bee and my mom hang out, spend time together and are close in a way that I admire and sometimes envy. With an ease that I can’t quite manage, Mom can get The Bee to open up and share things with her that The Bee isn’t forthcoming with me. It’s a wonderful thing and I count my blessings that this is so.
I don’t think I’ve ever given my mom a proper thank you. Sure I have taken the time to do things for her, I may have even said the words but there were times when Mom would intuitively know that something was wrong and force me (as only a mom can) to get out of my own head and do something. She’s helped me raise my child who is growing to be a proper young lady. Mom has helped me to see my worth and Mom has helped me move on and find the Rachée that I lost when I tried to become a new person.
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This post was inspired by Tiny Sunbirds, Far Away the Left to Write May bookclub selection. I received a copy of the book to review. All thoughts and words are mine.
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