Because:
…I was feeling better…
…Effin’ Guy told me I was hot…
…The jeans that were too tight now fit…sorta…
…I only had a taste and it was low calorie…
…and besides, its the holidays and well dieting NOW is no fun…
…oh yeah, on second look the picture wasn’t SO bad…
…I wasn’t quite as out of breath when walking slowly…
I stopped being as gung ho about the whole weight loss thing, declared that the mirror was indeed a liar and went on about my merry way. However the scale at my aunt’s house didn’t lie as the numbers rang across the display and I am back to wear I was a short while ago: depressed, angry and pissed.
So it’s back to square one. If a smoker can take six times to quit, how come I can’t take a second start at my eating habits? This time I ‘ve decided that “I don’t like the way I look” is a good reason but not enough to keep me going. I realize that I can lose all of the weight that I want but until I change the things that caused me to lose control, I would continue on the way I have. Since I spent several hours all alone, I started by listening to Renee Stephens Inside Out Weight Loss podcast. I love Renee. She is a life coach who encourages people to realize that weight loss starts from within and then the aesthetics can be noted. I’ve listened on and off for a bit not really hearing her message until today: Motivation.
Aha!
Are my dreams too big (lose an insane amount of weight to fit a dress that I wore five years and 30 pounds ago in about a month? Sorta.) but instead of being bummed out and just not going I see that I have time to rethink my motivation (one event) and focus on the big picture (lots of events).
So, back to square one, water and rethinking where I am, what I need and how I’ll get there.
-r
You’re still hot!